Walking Down A Lonely Road Alone

Sleeping in peaceful harmony,
Never having a single need,
Never doubting who friends can be,
I wake from a sleep seeing it is only me.

My eyes are open and clear, 
I am going nowhere,
A reality I can't erase,
Lost, I embrace death.

I walk a road I have been before,
I close each and every door,
I say farewell my friend,
In sleep, I'll see you again.

The road is open, nothing there,
Breathing in the cold brittle air,
Alone I begin the journey to the end,
Write, post and send.

Reality is a cold harsh place,
Rough and edgy, my heart did race,
Slow and easy, I drag myself along,
Far from anywhere I might belong.

Music plays the light and dark memories,
Words written tell hidden stories,
Gone but I won't forget,
Life lost is my one regret.

Goodbye, lies that seemed so real,
Hello, lonely road,
I have a few games for you,
While I walk down a lonely road alone.

©2015 TanyaMarie

Happy Birthday to my babies Daddy

41... Hey old fart, you're now older. If you play that game of aging gracefully, I'll point out
the error in your train of thought. Just admit it. You are OLD! ((and proud of it))

No idea if you'll get to see this but maybe someone will be kind and point it out to you.

If not....At least the thought was here.

Divorced now for 1 year, 9 months and a handful of days. Moving on was hard but thank you for the support and reminders along the way. I still have a ways to go but I'll make it. Our girls will make sure I do. You'll pull through all the craziness that life tossed your way too. You have a new look on life and that is good. Keep moving forward. Set that example old man.

Cheers to getting older. I may not like it but I've come to appreciate it almost as much as you have.

I don't give gifts the way most do but you know this. So please consider this the "better" gift.

The gift of a friend who spent too many years as your wife. 

"Goodbye Lover, Hello again, old friend"

As summer continues and begins to fade,

The Old life plays out to rest where it may,

Cheers to a new beginning that never ends,

For we've both come a long way.

Happy birthday to you,

May it shine as yesterday should have,

May dreams come true,

Make a wish for whatever you desire.

Goodbye, ol' lover, 

Father of the children that keeps us friends,

Move on in this life that moves forward,

And remember the life that did come to an end.

Hello again, old friend,

It's been awhile since I've seen you,

I remember how you turned my world upside down,

I remember the boy who took my pain away too.

Glad to have you back,

Smile and live your life for you,

Live your life for our children,

I'll watch from afar, in case you need a friend.

Happy birthday, Curtis. I really do hope you find all you've ever wanted and it makes you happy. Life is too short to not be happy. Just remember those who love you along your way. They make life so much more peaceful. (yes, like mom and our girls and even your dad. haha) 

Cherry Cobbler

PREP: 15 MINS
TOTAL TIME: 55 MINS
SERVINGS: 8

INGREDIENTS:
3 3/4 cups all-purpose flour, plus more for rolling
4 teaspoons baking powder
1 1/2 teaspoons coarse salt
1 cup sugar
3/4 cup (1 1/2 sticks) very cold unsalted butter
2 cups cold heavy cream, plus more for brushing
3 pounds fresh cherries, pitted, or 2 1/4 pounds frozen cherries
4 teaspoons cornstarch
1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract

DIRECTIONS:
1.Preheat oven to 400 degrees. In a bowl, combine flour, baking powder, salt, and 1/2 cup sugar. Using large holes on a box grater, grate butter into flour mixture. With a fork, stir in cream until dough just comes together. On a floured work surface, roll out dough to a 3/4-inch thickness with a floured rolling pin. With a knife or biscuit cutter, cut out 8 to 12 rounds or squares of dough.
2.In a bowl, combine cherries, remaining 1/2 cup sugar, the cornstarch, and vanilla. Divide mixture among four 1- to 1 1/2-cup ramekins; top each with 2 to 3 dough pieces. Brush tops with cream. Bake cobblers on a rimmed baking sheet until biscuits are golden and juices are bubbling, 40 to 45 minutes, rotating sheet halfway through. Let cool 15 minutes. Serve warm or at room temperature.

Martha Stewart - Cherry Cobbler

40th Birthday Drawing to a Close

This day began with a small burst of birthday wishes on my facebook wall from a couple of Aussie friends and one UK friend. Then a post on a friend's forum took root shortly before midnight.

Then I slept. Woke up at 7am. Around 8:30-9am, my boyfriend brought in a turtle cake. Really cute.
I felt like a kid again. I'll be adding the two turtles to my collection. Two of my girls made a mess of it but between five people, half a quarter sheet got eaten. No, I didn't eat any.

Then the typical day stuff began. I went to the laundromat and spent two hours there. UGH!
But.. there was an amusing event that happened. A little boy took my bra off the counter and wore it
around his head. I didn't notice due to saying thank you to those who wished me a happy birthday.
By the time I was paying attention, an older boy, his brother, I think, was bringing me my bra. He was so red-faced, I didn't get upset. I did request that he say Happy Birthday to me and he did. He asked how old I was and I said old. He pfft me and walked away. I was amused.

Back home, I put clothes away and did dishes. I checked facebook off and on too and shared a pic of Mt.Dew and peanut butter cups. That went over well. haha
After that I just listened to music and basically had a lazy day.

Around 6:30pm, 2 of my girls (and one with her boyfriend) came over for a bit. My youngest helped me mix fruit into sherbert for an after cake drink.

Then more laziness. A ton of birthday wishes. Over 50 of them. Not bad really. I was surprised.
Nicely so. But a couple of people who never miss my birthday, did miss it which is going to end this night on a bad note.

Less than ten minutes to go. Wish my baby sister had left a message and wish a couple of other friends had too but... such is life.

Soon it'll be a new day and this day can end. Back to normal we go.